so lovely

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 21:25:20 GMT

i'm a trader

sabrinanan.blogspot.com

what's yours?

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 19:27:56 GMT

i'm irritated. with nothing inparticular.
work is getting on my nerves a little bit.
hopefully things still stay on the path they were supposed to, but it's so slow it may not.

i played indoor soccer the other day, my body is so sore it feels like i got the shit kicked outa me.

i'm looking forward to a long weekend.
i want to retire.

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 17:17:11 GMT

i want to be a vampire.
and if i ever run into robert pattinson i'm going to fornicate with his sexy ass.

stupid twilight!

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 07:21:52 GMT

i found my dress.

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 16:29:06 GMT

you still think i'm here to save.

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 20:50:42 GMT

i'm so excited for our wedding, it's going to be beautiful.
everything is coming together so well. we booked our honeymoon, a 7 night cruise to cabo, puerto viarta and manzanitta (sp?), bascily its going to be amazing. we splurged and got a suite with a big balcony, it's going to be perfect, but oh expensive. we also got another photographer for our wedding day. 2 photographers for one day, i'm going to have so many good photos, i have a great feeling about it.

bethany, anna and i are going to california next weekend just to get away. go to disneyland and stuff. it's going to be so so fun just us 3. they are driving on friday and picking me up from the airport friday night, so i dont have to miss work, cause i love work THAT much. actually, cause i make more in a day than i'd probably spend out there, so i might as well cause i fly for free.

i got my arm tattood. i haven't been tattood in so long i forgot how bad it hurt, and once he started i couldn't very well stop. it's a girly peacock, i love love love it. maybe i'll get around to posting a photo or 2 when it's finished.

i love you guys.

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 05:13:39 GMT

i'm happy..

it's a new year, i have a new apartment, and a new outlook.

i love love love it here.

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 02:25:09 GMT

it stormed today.
it started snowing at about 12 and when i left work at 4:30 i have 8 inches of powder on my car.
the roads were so bad i was sliding every where... i can't wait to cozy up in my warm bed all weekend.

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 18:11:02 GMT

once i get these braces off of my teeth i will regain my confidence and i will be so excited to go out with my friends again. but until then, i dont like talking, or smiling.. especially to new people.

one the 2nd we are going to a sugar bowl party.. i am so nervous.

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 17:53:58 GMT

i can't wait until david comes home.
my house is awfully quiet here by myself..

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 02:00:21 GMT

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 23:23:19 GMT

President Barack Obama...

I believe in you.

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 03:41:29 GMT

today i....

went to every halloween store in layton-ogden.

went winter shopping and got 2 sweaters, a really neat jacket that i dont think i'll ever wear, a pair of ridiculously cute charcoal grey heels, and a pair of black flats.

found out our external hard drive that has about 200 gigs of music died. it could cost any where between $250 to $1800 to fix, and there's still a chance we'll lose everything.

watched the snow come down!!!!

i love saturdays/fall.

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 14:38:40 GMT

"oh, no," i said
i think about the times
the way you smile at me
and how we always kiss

and how we drank the sun
and killed the night
and fought the sleep and won
and how we left it all unmade

it was only once

now there's more than one
no, there's only one
now there's more than one
you're the only one
you're the only one
you're the only one

it's good to see
that you are doing well
and well enough to be
laughing here with me

'cause what we did
there's no excuse for it
you know i love you so
and i'd love to know what i did

it was only once

i want you to know
that i will always love you
and always be your friend
and never leave you again

the past is past
it's now, so we can go
and we can move ahead
i hope this letter gets read

if just only once

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 00:55:53 GMT

love love love.

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 02:59:26 GMT

i am in a weird place. everyone is growing up and growing a part, going down different paths.
i need a change. i want to move. i want to work less, and i want it all to go back to how it was. i want the chance to meet new people. i want to know people who will go out to breakfast with me, or who will come over and watch re runs with me. i want to know people who live in my complex so i don't have to drive forever every time i want to go do some stuff. that's my problem, i live to far to do anything. no one is willing to come up to me, i'm always obligated to go down to salt lake. i mean, i guess i understand. i am the one who moved away. but its so hard to get motivated to drive 40 miles when i do it every day during the week. how do people meet others when they don't go to school, and don't work with anyone but sweet old ladies? i need to figure this out..

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 20:51:23 GMT

after almost 2 years of loving and kissing him everyday... he asked me to marry him!

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 23:47:14 GMT

we're so gheeeeeeeeey

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 02:29:55 GMT

i'm supa fast! no seriously... that's my go cart name.
we went go carting the other day at speed street.
we went with 8 people, mostly boys, and i was the
second fastest out of everyone. i felt awesome. even
with a dumb helmet on.

i sold my car today. we finalize it tomorrow...
good bye bruce, oh how i will miss you.

me and taylor are going to have a wonderful life together.
i can't wait girl!!!

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 16:55:53 GMT

saved by the bell seasons 1-5 here i come.

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 04:28:06 GMT

i just put my 2 weeks in at vans and i'm so scared.
i'm leaving to join the union for office workers and go
and be an office manager. it's nerve racking because
i've never really worked anything other than retail
and i know i'm good at retail... but i don't know if
i will be good at anything else. i know everything
will be okay, but i just can't help but worry.
june 21st is my last day, so if anyone wants my
discount come to my store. 50% of regular price
merch and 30% of sale merch.

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 23:06:25 GMT

hey me too b.
it just feels like i can't breath these days.
it feels like all of my friends are going away.
it feels like i have 1000 pounds just sitting on my chest.
people think I'm changing, but really.. it's just something
that i can't bare tell, but i can't bare to be around them
because i want to tell.
i need friends in Davis county. i need someone who i can
just call up and say hey! lets go get ice cream.
i need someone who doesn't just want to talk to me about
money. and someone who doesn't act like we are competing.
it feels like i have no body to talk to.
and i really don't have any body to share stuff with
except for my boyfriend.
i need someone to go sit at the pool with me on my days off.
but everyone lives so far and doesn't want to drive over to me
but expects me to drive to salt lake not only for work, but
every time we decide to get together.
someone who will make plans with me, instead of thinking
i don't want to hang out with them because I'm already doing
something with David.
someone who doesn't think i put David in front of them because
i respect him enough to not come home after work when he has
already bought us dinner to make when i get home. it would be a
different story if they said something the day before, or
even before it's to late.
i just want it to be like the old days really.

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 05:21:47 GMT

for the first time, in a long time i'm happy. with everything.
if its not one thing it's the next for me.
if it's not my job, it's another person.
if it's not another person, its my job.

i started at vans full time this past week as the store manager.
today was my first day by myself as the head of the store, and i'm not gunna lie... it's pretty intimidating have employees underneath you being 5 years older than you, knowing everything about the store and me knowing nothing.
other than all that i love it. i'm so happy to be out of fossil. my boss was such fucking scum. i hope he loses his job. he doesn't deserve it.

i love my boyfriend. he treats me like GOLD. the only boy who i have ever been able to talk to about mine and our problems. i have never done that before, i've always kept it in for a year or 2 until we finally exploded and would have the worlds worst break ups. but not anymore. i'm in a real life, real loving grown up relationship. i just want to give him the entire world... making him happy is what i want to do more than anything.
i hate that i have been married, and i hate that i have ever told anyone i loved them.. because i now know that i was never even close to loving ANYONE. i just want everyone to take me seriously when i say, THIS IS THE REAL DEAL. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE HIM. i couldn't imagine what it would be like to not come home to him everynight, and wake up next to him every morning. i'm the absolute luckiest girl in the world. winter will be one year for us... and not one real fight. i love it.

it snowed today. it's only september.

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 02:23:15 GMT

i dont know how people could say negative and mean things about someone, and than in no time at all be best friends with them and act like nothing ever happened.

i don't really need people like that in my life.
i'm happy with the one person that i have, he's better than everyone.

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 02:03:48 GMT

life is good. i moved to layton, it's nice up here. quiet, and i love our cats. i'm still at fossil, and there is a rumor that when we get remodeled we're closing for 6 weeks, and i would be getting paid for that. so i'm really looking forward to that, if it does infact happen.
i got my GED finally and i have an appoitment with a councelor tomorrow at the university of phoenix, hopefully to figure out what i'm going to do with my life. i really am pushing elementary education. but teachers in utah start at like $26,500 a year, and that is a lot less than i make now, and i don't know if i could support myself on that later on in life.
i'm going to try to get Monster Energy to buy advertisement space on my car, cause it attracts a lot of attention, and it's green. i'm hoping they will, cause it would pay for my car payment.

i miss you all. i've been ducking under radar for a while. just working, and coming home and spending time with the person i care about the most.
life is different.